BPD - Non Borderline - Information and Insight

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Life Coaching For Family Members and Relationship Partners of Those with Borderline Personality Disorder

A.J. Mahari has 5 years experience as life coach working primarily with family members, loved ones, ex and relationship partners of people with Borderline Personality Disorder as well as those who have BPD.

Why would a love one - a non borderline - of someone who has BPD want or need or benefit from life coaching?

The answer is simply-complex. The short answer is because you are in pain and you need to find more effective and healthier ways to cope with that pain and with the complicated challenges of caring about someone with Borderline Personality Disorder.

In my work as a life coach many non borderline clients have given me the feedback that they experience the support, understanding, and validation of their own challenges to be central to finding their way to the kind of change that they need to work to create in their lives, whether they are staying in a relationship, or in contact with the borderline in their lives or not.

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While there are many avenues of support when one is in a confused and emotionally painful and difficult situation it is important to confide in someone with a deep understanding of Borderline Personality Disorder.

Borderline Personality Disorder is a very complex mental illness that profoundly effects not only those who are diagnosed with it but anyone and everyone that cares and/or loves them.

As a life coach I am a change-agent. I have found my way, personally in my own life, through the many mazes on both sides of Borderline Personality Disorder. I understand the pain and the process that must be navigated in order to win the emotional freedom, whether one remains in relationship and contact to the borderline in their life or not.

Family members, loved ones, parents of adult children with BPD, adult children of a borderline parent, ex or relationship partners of those with BPD all have one thing in common - the pain that is living on the other side of someone with Borderline Personality Disorder.

You can claim your emotional freedom. You can get back in touch with a yourself, a self that you may feel you are either losing or that you may have already lost. You can find your way back to the you that you were before the pain of the enigmatic roller-coaster toxic relational dynamic with someone with BPD in your life.

What you need is change. What you specifically need is change in your own life. If you are in pain and suffering yourself, you need to create change in yourself. You won't find the emotional freedom, the healing, and the relief that you seek through trying to rescue the borderline in your life.

You cannot change or rescue or fix the person you care or love that has BPD - no matter what you do or how hard you try.

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Borderline Personality Inside Out Radio Show

A.J. Mahari's Radio Show About Borderline Personality Disorder

A.J. Mahari, a person with first-hand life experience on both sides of Borderline Personality Disorder, has a radio show that explores and examines issues relevant for those with Borderline Personality Disorder and Family Members, Loved Ones, Ex or Relationship Partners of those with BPD - non borderlines.

There are some segments of The Borderline Personality Inside Out Radio Show that are most suited to those with BPD and some aimed at family members, loved ones, ex or relationship partners - non borderlines. While I caution those with BPD to be careful about listening to segments aimed at non borderlines - non borderlines will likely find the interviews and show segments for those with BPD of interest.

You can hear the last 5 archived segments of the in the right hand column of my blog here where the blue blogtalkradio.com player is located to listen to other archived show segments you can go to My Blogtalkradio Profile Page.

You can read more about calling into the show and also subscribe to my radio show and receive each segment as a free pod cast via itunes.

In the future I will be talking on my show about various aspects of Borderline Personality Disorder for those with BPD and the challenges for those who have or have had someone with BPD in their life - non borderlines.

To call in live while I'm on air click on the button below. Once I get some more segments done and a few interview shows as well there will be archives that you can visit at any time. Callers can call in using Skype without long distance charges from anywhere in the world. The call-in number is a United States number.

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I will be featuring interviews on this show along with segments where I just talk about certain challenges and aspects of Borderline Personality Disorder for those with BPD and for non borderlines. What you will hear, from me personally, on the radio show barely scratches the surface of all that I talk about in my Audio Programs (those specifically for non borderlines above and those for nons and borderlines listed below)

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To check for up-coming shows or listen to archived segments of the Borderline Personality Inside Out Radio Show just click on the button below.

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A.J. Mahari is a Life Coach who, among other things, specializes in working with those with BPD and non borderlines. A.J. has 5 years experience as a life coach and has worked with hundreds of clients from all over the world.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Family Members Relationship Partners (Ex's) And The Painful Paradox on the Other Side of Borderline Personality

For anyone who is a family member, relationship or ex-relationship partner of someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (often referred to as non borderlines) there is a central painful paradox that is a common experience. There are five main challenges to the world as you've known it or to the world as you might have thought it was going to be or wished it could have been. Each challenge faced by the non borderline arises out of what I refer to as this central and painful paradox on the other side of Borderline Personality Disorder.

The healthiest response that one can muster to this painful paradox on the other side of a loved one or family member with Borderline Personality Disorder hinges upon the degree to which you are ready, willing, and able to radically accept who your borderline loved one or family member is right now.

The first very formidable challenge to the non borderline is this radical acceptance. The second formidable challenge is the struggle to learn to disengage the chaotic rollercoaster of the emotional reality of the borderline in one's life. The third formidable challenge is to surrender any illusions that you have any control over whether your borderline family member or loved one is going to seek the help that they need and/or stick with therapy and get well.

The fourth formidable challenge is even more daunting for many non borderlines - it is the challenge of where you put your energy and focus. It is the juncture at which you must seek to take care of the 'self' in you that has been compromised, hurt, and negatively effected by the very toxic nature of the unhealthy ways that those who have BPD tend to attempt to relate.

The fifth formidable challenge for the non borderline is the process of letting go. For some this process of letting go will be in response to having to end a significant other relationship with someone with BPD. It may be in response to having to end contact with a family member with BPD or to having had the person with BPD in your life end all contact with you. There is also a process of letting go for many non borderlines that doesn't involve the termination of a relationship or the ending of all contact. Many non borderlines have to learn how to let go, essentially, even when they are still very much relating to a borderline family member or a borderline partner. Letting go in this context is about learning how to disengage and detach from the borderline's issues and about learning to identify, implement, communicate, and up-hold healthier boundaries.

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If you are a family member, loved one, or a relationship partner of someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, whether you stay in the relationship, keep relating to the borderline, or not, you will benefit from paying very close attention to the journey that is the recovery that you yourself need. You need to understand what you can about BPD - what is reasonable to know. Beyond that, however, seeking to figure something out that is really the borderline's personal enigma to solve will only keep you stuck in the paradox of your own pain and suffering. It is so important to shift a lot of your focus off of the person with BPD - at least to the point where it is not so out of balance or in some cases rather obsessive and to practice kind, gentle, patient, and loving care of yourself and any children involved.

Know that even though you may love and care about the person with BPD in your life, you cannot rescue them. No matter how much you may want to or wish you could - you just can't.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Why Do Borderlines Often Discuss Their Troubled Pasts Repeatedly?

Those with Borderline Personality Disorder - especially if they aren't getting treatment - not only often discuss their troubled pasts but they are re-living them more often than not. Troubled aspects of the borderline's past are triggered in many ways but most commonly and most often through attempts to relate to others. This is the primary basis of so much of the behaviour (and often abuse) that family members or relationships partners of those with BPD (non borderlines) see and often have imposed upon them.

The abandonment trauma that most agree is central to BPD remains (unless and until enough therapy is successfully worked through) unresolved. What is unresolved remains a focus for those with BPD. Borderlines, whether they are aware of it or not, live in a world that is all about avoiding and staying away from their abandonment trauma - the unresolved and dissociated pain of it. There is a strong need to remain in the victim role, often, because in this role one cannot be expected to take personal responsibility for what are essentially their reactions - reactions that are in and of themselves actions. However those with BPD stay focused on the reactions because reactions are "because of" what happened to them in their past (as they rationalize it) and therefore not their fault or responsibility.

On top of this reality then we see that the borderline transfers or projects his or her unresolved past - abandonment trauma - onto the non borderline(s) in their lives in ways that both see them discuss their troubled past and act it out over and over again.

This focus on the unresolved aspects of borderline abandonment trauma is not only discussed but as I've said is re-experienced and re-lived in what are known as repetition compulsions. In many ways the need to discuss their troubled past or aspects of it over and over is a part of those compulsions.

When I had BPD I also found that what was then a need for me to discuss my troubled past rather compulsively had all to do with the negative polarized way that I thought about things and experienced life and certainly relationships when I was in the active throes of BPD.

Ironically, when a person with BPD does engage compulsively in discussing their troubled and unresolved past repeatedly he or she really not only keeps it alive but drives the patterns of thought that set up the mindset from which borderlines cognitively distort the here and now into triggered dissociative re-enactments of the very unresolved trauma they so often speak of.

When I had BPD there was nothing to compare to or balance my experience with and until I was ready and learned how to take personal responsibility (in therapy) for my own issues from the past. I perceived (misperceived really) anything and everything from others (that I didn't want or like - that "felt" invalidating or critical) as being done to me on purpose with intent - in other words as victimizing me as I had been victimized by my parents as a child.

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A key thing to remember in all of this is that more often than not, those with BPD, again, who aren't committed to therapy and really working and making progress in recovery, do not have the same perception of their negative compulsive focus on the past as nons do. They are also often not aware of how much or how often they may discuss it anymore than they are aware of acting it out and re-playing it out in their lives.

Those who are living in the active throes of (especially untreated) Borderline Personality Disorder experience life in a parallel universe. They are locked into the recapitulation of their unresolved abandonment trauma in ways that obliterate both the here and now "shared reality" as non borderlines know it and that essentially leave the non borderline being related to "invisible" to their own projected out intrapsychic and pathologically narcissistic unresolved abandonment trauma.

The degree to which someone with BPD needs to discuss their past, or aspects of it, repetitively can be used by the non borderline as a gauge of where the borderline really is at. If there are cyclical patterns to your relationship with the borderline (whether chosen or unchosen) you can gain insight into what you may need to choose for yourself based upon this observation as opposed to just relying upon what are often unkept promises from the borderline.

If the person in your life who has BPD is often relating to you in ways that you can observe are from a parallel reality and that have more intensity than the average person would bring the situation in the here and now this is a good indicator that you are dealing with someone who has not yet found an understanding of what it means to take personal responsibility for him or herself and his/her issues. This means that you are definitely in for more of the same. You cannot change this pattern that the person with BPD will and must play out until and unless he/she gets skilled professional help in therapy that will help them gain awareness about this dissociation and cognitively distorted way of thinking, acting and relating.

Is Borderline Self Harm Just Attention-Seeking?

Many family members, loved ones, or relationship partners of those with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) (non borderlines) often think and believe that the borderline in their lives is just seeking attention when they engage in self harm or self-harming behaviour.

Do borderlines harm themselves to get the attention of others? Do borderlines self harm to manipulate others?

There are times when a borderline harming his/herself may do so out of need for attention and/or to manipulate someone else. There is often, however, not a conscious understanding of this. That is not to say that a borderline does not ever self harm without knowing that they are attempting to induce guilt in the non borderline that they hope will illicit the emotional response they want or need to help them with dysregulated emotion.

Regardless of any and all potential motivating factors with borderline self harm, however, borderlines engage in self harm often impulsively and compulsively. They are often addicted to it as a means of attempting to cope with dysregulated emotions. Borderlines tend to experience dyregulated emotions most often in attempts to relate to others - often the non borderlines in their lives. This is one major reason why it may appear that borderline self harm is aimed at you or merely to get your attention.

Self harm in those with BPD, while it serves many functions, for most has some element of attention-seeking to it. Now, this may not be something that many with BPD are aware of when they do self harm. But self harm, for the different reasons it is engaged in, used, and done, is in many ways about the borderline saying - through actions - "Look how much I hurt", "help me", "I can't take the pain", "I don't know who I am or how to cope" among many other things.

Self harm gives the borderline a sense of control when the reality is that emotionally they are out of control and unable to cope. The focus on physically self harming oneself does give the illusion of a type of pseudo-mastery if you will. A pseudo mastery that attempts to make up for what is the absence of emotional mastery or competence.

Self harm, for me, when I had BPD, was a way of converting my pain (a lot of which, back then I was clueless about) from the emotional where I had no competence to deal with it, face it or feel it, to the physical where I felt that I had some control over it.

Self harm, in many with BPD becomes an addiction of its own. I think even more than any physical or biological response to it or relief gained through it, the real addiction is in defending against the intra-psychic pain - the pain of the core wound of abandonment - abandonment trauma - that is experienced by those with BPD as being something that feels as if it will kill them if they touched it, acknowledged it or even felt a bit of it.

It is what I refer to as the the abandoned pain of BPD. It is the source of not only self harm but so much of the borderline defense mechanisms that definitely interfere with any and all attempts to relate. It is the borderline's way of trying desperately to manage and cope with dysregulated emotion that is often triggered through relating by the threat of one's abandonment trauma rising up to an almost conscious level and that is a terrifying experience that most borderlines in the active throes of BPD must avoid at all costs because to them and for them it feels like impending death and they do not have any healthy interpersonal coping skills to cope in any other way with these dysregulated emotions that create such distress.

Self harm, is among other things, a legitimate, albeit pathological and self-destructive attempt by the borderline to cope with the distress of his/her dysregulated emotions in the absence of any other means of coping.

Self harm is a cry for help while at the same time it is often self punishment. The cry for help comes from the reality of the abandonment trauma no matter how dissociated from. The self punishment essentially comes out of the shame of the core wound of abandonment. Borderlines have often learned to associate need with shame.

Both the feeling of a need and its accompanying shame overwhelm the borderline and trigger the borderline back to his/her unresolved abandonment trauma.

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Borderline Dance - Non Borderline Quagmire

There is a central truth about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). It is a truth that is all-too real and painful for both those diagnosed with BPD and those who are family members, relationship partners (ex - relationship partners) children or parents or friends of those with BPD (non borderlines).

Borderline Personality Disorder creates layered situations from which extrication is very difficult. This is true for the borderline or the non borderline. In this dance of enmeshment between the borderline and non borderline perhaps the only thing that is truly mutual is the pain, suffering, loss and grief.

There is a dance that takes place between those diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder(borderlines) and those who try to relate to them (non borderlines). It is painful. The reality of Borderline Personality Disorder in a loved one, partner, family member, or friend, sets up a toxic and painful quagmire for the non borderline.

The Dance of the Borderline can be defined as the projective-identification/transference of their identity to the extent that they do not know it on to someone else. What does this mean? It means that when the borderline in your life is sad, or hurt or afraid, rather than feel those feelings, as the non borderline would, the borderline will turn on you in an effort to have you hold, act out and be the very feelings that they cannot hold, handle or cope with. It is a sub-conscious way to have mirrored back to self all that one feels but does not know how to cope with and so those with BPD dissociate from these feelings, essentially, refusing to feel them. Borderlines "act out" or "act in" these dissociated from feelings because they do not yet know how to tolerate the distress of feeling them and they do not know how to soothe them. This is the reality of the abandoned pain of BPD.

It is essentially, the borderline trying to put distance between him or herself and his/her own pain. Little do most borderlines realize that in effect what they are really doing when they act out and push people away and erect walls to 'protect' them is wall themselves in with the pain. There is no relief from pain to be found in casting it out to those or to the world around you. The walls that a borderline builds will wall that borderline in and threaten to drown him/her in his/her own pain. The non borderline who does not have any boundaries is at risk of being sealed into that borderline wall of agony right along with the person with BPD.

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It is through this dance that the borderline often sets him/herself up to continually re-experience what feels familiar. As most borderlines have a tremendous fear of abandonment the behaviour that they engage in often is the reason why people turn away, sooner or later, to maintain their own sanity. Yet when it is reasonable to leave or to take space (to a non-borderline) the borderline (usually not taking any personal responsibility) will blame you and will experience your taking space or your leaving as abandonment.

If you have Borderline Personality Disorder and you have often wondered why it seems that others abandon you, you may need to learn how to take more personal responsibility for what you are actually perpetuating in the ways that you relate to others. What feels like abandonment is often the person with BPD distancing the non borderline because he/she is re-playing out what I refer to as unresolved core wound of abandonment issues, in the here and now, in ways that make the person you may think you love invisible and the person you are actually relating to is the person from your past with whom you experienced the very painful relational rupture that caused your core wound of abandonment.

The borderline is in a very painful and real world of his or her own. Emotionally, it is a world that exists in parallel to the world of the "averagely healthy". Despite a usually above average intelligence and an often charming initial presentation most borderlines are emotionally vastly different from how they are intellectually. The discrepancy between a borderline's general ability to think and his/her emotional capacity is often an internal schism between self-known and self-unknown that is wider than the grand canyon. It is world that is run by terror and fear and often by the triggered-dissociations from the past of the borderline.

The Dance of the Borderline is experienced by the non borderline when all of sudden, yet again, they have become the focus of the borderline's pain, rage, anger, unmet needs, wants, demands, helplessness and so on. Questions I've been asked a lot of late in email is, "How do I not go there? How can I set a boundary? What do I do when he/she starts it all over again? Why is this happening?

So there is the borderline prone to repeatedly engaging in a deceptive dance of demanding devastation and the non borderline who cannot get into the head (understand the motivation) of the borderline. Herein lies the central quagmire of the non borderline.

The non borderline's quagmire is realized when he/she comes to the inevitable conclusion that he/she has to effect some change for themselves. There comes the realization that a choice has to be made. The choice is one that most often feels like, and is, a choice between equally unfavourable and disagreeable alternatives. This is the projected out predicament in which the borderline (to a degree) has lived within all of his/her life without knowing if fully. It is this similar dilemma/dynamic or predicament that is the fuel of the borderline dance in the first place. So you see the borderline and the non-borderline, in some ways, are not so far apart. The experience of each is painful. The experience of each is real.

What the non borderline must realize within this quagmire, however, is that they have the tools necessary to take care of themselves. The non borderline has the ability (not limited emotionally by a personality disorder) to responsibly react to what is not working for them or to what is hurting them. This realization, however, is a process.

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Non Borderlines - You can purchase 6 ebooks packaged together with or without audio.

Those with BPD and/or Non Borderlines can purchase A.J. Mahari's 3 "Core Wound of Abandonment" series ebooks packaged together with or without audio.

Borderlines, due to the very nature of the personality disorder, are not that emotionally/psychologically free to choose (until they've had quite a bit of successful therapy and worked through much of these issues.) Borderlines, in what I call, the active throes of BPD, are lost to the conscious awareness needed to create the kind of choices that can support getting on and staying on the road to recovery.

So, you are in a relationship with a borderline and you have reached this stage of quagmire. You want the relationship to survive. You have all sorts of mixed feelings toward this borderline in your life, what are you to do? The first thing you must do is decide what it is that you cannot live with anymore. Once you've identified that, you will then have the rather difficult task of communicating that to the borderline in your life. Before you communicate what your limits and boundaries are make sure that you are prepared to back them up. If you are not, or you do not you will experience the dance times one hundred and the borderline in your life will generate more chaos than before.

So, you've identified the problem, you have decided what your limits and boundaries are, you have a plan of action ready to implement and consistently stick to. At this point it's time to talk to the borderline in your life. As you do this -- remember, you must speak only to your experience and not to his/her behaviour. This will be the beginning of a difficult and painful process whether things work out or not. As with any quagmire, know that your pain is real and that pain is a natural part of change. Your pain does not have to cause you to doubt that you are doing what you need to do for yourself.

In fact, for both those who have BPD and non borderlines the more pain you are aware of being in, the closer to your own truth you getting. This is a positive thing. This is where radical acceptance is the best practice to implement. Whether you have BPD or you are a non borderline, radical accepting what you are now realizing and sitting with the pain associated with that rising awareness is the foundation of any and all change that you will choose to create in your life, in time.

The non borderline must communicate honestly, fairly and consistently with the borderline knowing full well that you cannot have any control, effect or say on how the borderline in your life will choose to react or behave.

The only way to not be engaged in the dance of the borderline is to identify, communicate and follow through with your boundaries. Your message in words and in action must be clear. If for example, the borderline in your life is demanding something from you that you cannot give, it is reasonable that you answer the demand calmly with a statement about how you feel and why you cannot do what you are being asked or manipulated to do. Then make a clear statement that you are not going to continue to engage in the conflict or issue. If the borderline continues to press or escalates his/her behavior then you have to disengage in whatever way you have set out as the way that you will do this. For example, if you made it clear you will leave the house for an hour or that you will take a half hour alone somewhere in the house then you must do this.

If you are finding that you have set boundaries and limits and that you have communicated them and acted upon them only to meet with more and more conflict, abuse, hostility etc then it is time to consider space. In order for you to take care of yourself and have your needs met, your boundaries and limits need to be respected. This is often next to impossible for many borderlines (not yet in therapy or refusing to get help). If the borderline in your life is not getting help, won't go get help, is in total denial, and will not respect your personhood then the choice you have to make in order to maintain your own sanity is one of space and distance, for a time, or altogether.

As someone who has gone through this from both sides of Borderline Personality Disorder (having had parents with BPD, having had BPD and recovered from BPD and then having had a relationship as a non borderline with someone with BPD) I can honestly say that often it is only through subsequent loss for the non borderline and what feels like re-abandonment to the borderline that healing can be realized.

When I was an adult in the process of working to recover from BPD, it took the loss of my family - it took me divorcing my family for me to create the kind of healthy foundation from which I could recover. When I had BPD, it took my losing people from my life before I could incorporate certain changes. When I was in a relationship, after my own recovery from BPD with someone with BPD, it took ending that relationship and losing the love I'd sought to gain (love that wasn't really love at all) in order for me to further mature and understand myself.

If you are staying in a relationship or continually caving or surrendering to "have peace" only to find that is not "right", or "good enough" for the borderline in your life either: you are doing NO ONE a favour by staying in that situation. You have to decide whether you are willing to remain a hostage anymore or not. Do you want your freedom enough? Yes in the pursuit of your disengaging the dance and your attaining your freedom you will hurt. The borderline will hurt. If life and recovery have taught me anything it's that you cannot grow and change without feeling pain. Let your pain motivate you to learn the lesson, whether you are a borderline or a non borderline.

If you have BPD and you are remaining engaged in a relationship where you know you are punishing or abusing or asking way too much from another because you don't know how to soothe yourself, take care of yourself, meet your needs, or live your own life, then you too will benefit from getting professional help to work out unresolved abandonment trauma so that you can learn to relate to others in healthier ways. Ways that can build relationships instead of destroy them and victimize others while you re-victimize yourself at the same time.

Purchase all 3 of ebooks for NON BORDERLINES packaged together with or without audio.

Non Borderlines - You can purchase 6 ebooks packaged together with or without audio.

Those with BPD and/or Non Borderlines can purchase A.J. Mahari's 3 "Core Wound of Abandonment" series ebooks packaged together with or without audio.

Often we, borderline or non borderline have to lose in order to gain. We have to grieve in order to grow. We have to say good-bye in order to say hello to ourselves and to subsequent others in our lives. No one of us can change for another. No one of us can control another. Relationships are complicated and hard enough. For the borderline they are not truly possible until the borderline learns to relate to "self". Until the borderline learns to relate to "self" he/she will always be relating over and over again to "self" through "other". This reality pushes the "other" away. It also is why the borderline tries to take hostages. If the borderline (in throes of BPD) only knows "self" through "other" and "other" goes away the experience is one as real and painful as "death of self" -- annihilation. The end of a relationship to a borderline can be like a death of "self" as was known in "other". The end of a relationship for a non-borderline or averagely "healthy" person is a very sad, painful loss but it is not the loss of self. In fact, when a non-borderline leaves a borderline they often experience a very healthy and welcoming "re-birth" of "self".

If you are borderline it is up to you to take responsibility for yourself and to learn to respect the limits and boundaries of others. If you are borderline you need to find yourself and to live through that "self" and not project that lost "self" onto others. If you are a non-borderline you need to be realistic with yourself and not accept anything less than basic human courtesy and respect.

The Dance of the Borderline, the tune of which can only be heard by a borderline is music that a non-borderline cannot truly hear or appreciate. You live in one world, separated from itself, worlds over-lapping, yet not touching, worlds in parallel. Borderlines need to stop the dance and the non borderlines need to end their quagmire. Whether this can be done in tandem or whether you have to let go and do it alone, only each of you can decide.

Each one of us in this world has a responsibility to ourselves. We cannot extend any real love to another until we learn to love "self", borderline or not. And for those with BPD to be able to learn to love "self" they must first find and get to know that "authentic self".

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Unwinding the Traps and Hooks of BPD and Letting Go

Understanding the reasons for and meaning and usual outcome of borderline hoovering - the promises, the overtures, the short periods of honeymoon behaviour that always rupture.

For those who are the family member, relationship partner or (ex-partner) of someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) - non borderlines - there are countless traps and hooks in the need and even the want of letting go of a relationship (chosen or unchosen) with someone with BPD.

The first time a relationship appears to be on the rocks or ending the non borderline (even if the borderline is a family member that you are disengaging from relating to) will more often than not be met with hoovering - being re-contacted, or sought out, and being promised just about anything if one will stay involved with the borderline. These overtures are promises that the borderline who has not worked on any of his or her issues cannot possibly live up or consistently implement and maintain. Hoovering, when the non borderline engages it, invariably leads to a honeymoon phase. If you are in a cycling on-again off-again relational dynamic (not an unusual way to realize that one really has to end a relationship) the honeymoon phase of the hoovering promises will get shorter and shorter.

Promises made without the work having been done in therapy by the borderline will result in rupture after rupture. Nothing will change, In fact, things usually get progressively worse and all-too-often the non borderline gets even more embroiled, enmeshed, and invested in trying to rescue the hoovering borderline.

Letting go of a relationship that has ruptured with the person with BPD in your life not only presents many difficult challenges to most non borderlines but this letting go also unfolds a mystery of puzzle pieces that don't seem to fit together. This enigma that is, more often than not, an inability to achieve resolution with the borderline can keep a non borderline stuck, trapped, and held hostage to a type of emotional pain that rather than decrease upon the end of a relationship actually increases until and unless the non borderline can effectively learn what it takes to truly Break Free From The BPD Maze and find their way to what is now being referred to as non-borderline recovery.

I talk about this in my latest video below. I would also invite you to check out my Audio Programs and/or my Ebooks to learn much more about breaking free from the hoovering promises of a borderline in your life. My audios and ebooks can reinforce what is necessary for you to be as aware of as you can be in order to unravel the quest for a resolution and come to a deeper understanding of why what is happening for you on the other side of someone with BPD is happening or why it has happened. What was behind the powerful punch of the entire allure of the relationship in the first place? What has kept you involved? What do you need to know about yourself? What can you learn from all this?

As someone who had BPD and then recovered only to end up in an relationship with someone with BPD (and NPD) six years after that recovery, I know the pain of being on the non borderline side. I write about this relationship and all that it taught me and how I have been able to heal from it and leave it behind in my ebook Full Circle - Lessons for Non Borderlines which features over 85+ lessons that can aid non borderlines in letting go of the borderline and the constant quest, focus, sometimes even obsession of trying to make some sense out of it all.

Non borderlines will benefit greatly from as much understanding about the parallel and twisted "reality" that unwinds itself Inside The Borderline Mind but also must find a healthy balance between this quest for a greater understanding of everything borderline and the need to be as aware of one's own needs, responsibility, and issues as possible.